Do Overs and Second Chances
artwork by teekaykern
I never thought I’d be the guy her friend’s would tell her not to go back to. I never thought I’d be the one to break her heart. I never thought I’d break her trust. I never thought I’d have to ask for a second chance. I never thought I could be so grateful. I never thought I could be so ashamed. I never thought I could be so sorry.
I can’t apologize enough. I was a scoundrel and a liar. I did horrible, horrible things and covered them up in a slew of lies for over a year. I have no one to blame but myself, and I’ve got no defense for what I did, other than I thought my lies would protect you. I realize now that that was wrong. I wouldn’t blame anyone from the outside looking in to say I’m not deserving, a waste of time, unworthy of a second chance, but you know it’s different than that.
You know that I love you, with all my heart. You know that I will do anything for you. You know that you’re all I think about, all I dream about. You know I can’t breathe without you. I’ll be here for you through it all, through the ups and downs, the on and offs, I’m always here, and I’m always yours, no matter our official status. My heart will always belong to you. I promise that will never change. I promise that I’ll never leave.
I’ve learned, I’ve learned that being transparently honest is always the answer. I understand, and respect, that it will take time for you to believe me again. I’ll be putting all my effort into regaining your trust. I’ll keep my promises, I’ll tell you the details, and most of all, I won’t make mistakes worth covering…
